终于可以回家了.总是待在同一个地方,说同样的话,做同一件事情,用同样的方式思考问题, 生活仿佛陷入一个怪圈,怎样也跳不出来,人生似乎要停止在这一刻了.  

在人的一生里,总有一些事情是必须去面对的.如果还有机会昂首去面对,那就应该为自己心中理想的结果做好准备;如果已经没有机会,那就坦坦荡荡地面对结果吧,但千万不能让事情更坏了.  

 

Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there

so tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
 

I want nothing but the truth.  

26年前的今天,妈妈把我带到这个世界,谢谢妈妈. 一年前的这个时候,我第一次收到来自心爱的人的生日礼物,我至今仍然感激. 早上醒来, 花了很长的时间才想起来这几天都发生了什么, 才记得自己要从床上起来,要去实验室工作. 让我想起, <<西雅图不眠夜>>里, 汤姆汉克斯这样说:"我要做的就是每天早上起床,然后呼吸;直到有一天我不用提醒自己起床,不用去提醒自己呼吸; 然后有一天我不用再去想念....."